Dearest Fred,
I am afraid of the John Lawton’s arriving and thereby preventing the dew lines you ask for. That without doing more than swallowing my breakfast, I sit down to tell you how much obliged I am for your letter this morning, I hardly expected it, & therefore it was doubly welcome. I fear, indeed, you must be a little dole, but this I trust will quickly pap away, if not likely to do so, you have still within your reach, the means of providing for yourself, (for the winter at least) the enjoyments of friendship & converse and I would not throw them lightly away, do anything that will crown your winter with roses – If your friends decidedly receptive any of your plans, they ought, I think, to find you better ones, If Mrs. Bob D- won’t do, let them suk some one who will, for it seems they don’t recommend Lady G- tho’ they would not object to her – I shall try to find out whether the widow would have gone had the plan be proposed. Your uncertainty may well surprise your friends who probably have never seen anything in you but that quickness & promptitude, which is so often not within genius – You ought not to wonder that others are not like you, the weaknesses of human nature are much more predominant that sense and genius, to judge other by yourself is not fair to either – I have no doubt but that you will decide well at last, at all of lates consider what is best for your own comfort, surely you have no friends who will quarrel with your doing this – You say you can make anything answer, & Heaven I trust will prosper your ability to do so – I shall be most anxious to hear your determination
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they must be sent from Sheffield – However, as you seem bent upon having one U will own the risqué of sending you mine, & I will send for one myself – The thimble I cannot send as Mrs. Chaloner has had it engraved with my name, & it is very disagreeable to use – You must therefore get one that fits the case – I am better today than I expected to be, tho’ I had little sleep. My horse, still the grey, won’t do it for me, he starts at coaches & James thinks must have sometime or other been hurt by one as he everyday fly thro’ the hedge rather than meet one – I will take are of myself & be as happy as I can at this moment I am not dole for I feel to have plenty to do – I have seen more of the household but I hear comfortable accounts of all – I found a letter from home & one from W.B – The former says partly is better, the letter begs a few lines on my return and was to some question about Miss [?] I shall be heartily glad when the next fortnight is over, I dread the Lawton’s
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I am sick at heart, & so would you if you had such a prospect before you – Martha[?] is all sunbeam, she likes her place & every body like her. If the “Ladies companions” does not arrive in time you send it back, & I will send you one by Lady Gordon if you send for her distinction – God bless you, believe me always truly, & affectionately yours
Mariana
You will find a letter in Paris
This is from a letter I found at the archives. I personally think it’s really nice to see that Mariana still thinks so highly of Anne and I think its a pretty sweet letter. It looked as though it had been ripped up, whether this was Anne, Mariana, Ann or just an accident is a mystery.